~A Bitter Swallow~

  Today my Pumpkin turns 14.   Wow.. where does the time go??  The other day I was sifting through some old pictures of the kids when they were younger.  Time sure does fly by in an instant, doesn't it?  I was reflecting on all the choices I've made as a mother.  I wish I could have been smarter about it when he was little.  I did a lot of stupid, stupid things.  I made some very unwise decisions.  But, throughout it all, I must have done okay, because my kid is phenomenal.  I wish I could hug him right now, but he's at his dad's.  I will see him later for his party today though. 

  If I had it to do all over again, would I?  I definitely wouldn't change when I had him.  He came at the perfect time.  I do truly believe he saved my life, and I tell him that all of the time.  I was on a very bad path, and if he had not have shown up when he did, who knows where I would have landed.  I'm pretty certain it wouldn't have been somewhere good.  I was able to stop all of that bad stuff the instant I found out I was no longer responsible for just myself anymore.  There was a little person in me that I needed to care for.  Now it was about that one. Not me. 

  He was such a wonderful baby.  Even though his entry into this world was a bit tremulous.  Not for anything wrong with him.  He was perfect.  But the stupid doctor I had was a moron.  No, Pumpkin was an absolute delight.  I never had the problems with incessant crying.  He slept in my bed until I decided it was time for his toddler bed, which he moved into without a fuss.  Then his big boy bed in his own room thrilled him instead of scaring him.   He would get up in the morning, and go quietly turn on the television and stay super quiet to let me sleep in.  He was (and still is) such an angel. 

Of course, he is a boy, and boys are accident prone.  We had the time they had to straight-jacket him to clean globs of dirt out of his eye.  The time he almost cut his toe off.  The time he was learning to walk, and fell in the emergency room while we were waiting for his grandma and split his head open...  Not to mention his belly button, the inch-long wire of bracing wire sticking him in the mouth for three days, and the infamous toe incident.
 
  He is the bestest big brother.  He was so thrilled for his baby sister.  And he helped me out as much as a three-year-old possibly could with her. 

I love you, my ninja Pumpkin!  Remember I am always here for you, NO MATTER WHAT!  You are reaching that age where everyone says the turbulence comes in.  Of course, they said that about you when you were younger, too, and it never happened.  I hope our relationship always stays strong and true.   I LOVE YOU!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I made a new writing blog. It's pretty. Find it here: Thaydra Writes. I'll try to actually keep up with it. We'll see. I make no promises. I mean, look how often I post here! Bwahahahaha! No really.. I'll try. That one is more important!