~A Bitter Swallow~

  I did a numerology chart today, just for shits and giggles.  Much of it I agree with, however a lot of it makes me sound MUCH more confident that I really am.  I'm also pretty lazy, so that's affecting some of my great potential.  I'm starting to think maybe I should become the next Pope or Dali Lama.   I'm born for it.  ;)

If you want to try it out, go here:  http://www.123numerology.com/?hop=vitan1

 Here's what my numbers say about me:

What Does Your Life Path Say About You?

Your tendency to live for today and not for tomorrow is a blessing as well as curse for you as you journey along your life path. The drawback of this is that you are easily distracted from your responsibilities....

You are creative, expressive and blessed with some type of talent that is guaranteed to put you in the spotlight at least once in your life. You have an upbeat personality and others find you easy to identify with. You also have the potential to become the symbol for an entire culture or generation. Many beloved entertainers, columnists, movie stars and inspirational leaders in the world are number 3's.

Your creative and performing talents are also augmented by your astounding ability to understand and empathize with others. You are the number that knows how to "give the people what they want." For this reason many of you also end up in sales or advertising as your innate charm enables you to "sell ice to an Eskimo."

You often rise to the top of any career that you choose but the old cliche "it's lonely at the top" also applies to you. This is because threes are often fated to be loved by many but not by one special other. However most as most 3's are naturally philanthropic and giving of their hearts, many are quite satisfied with the mass attention and social popularity that is often part of their life path.
In fact, the highest attainment of your life path is the polishing and perfecting of your talent and sharing it with the world. Unfortunately as you do so you may find yourself leaving a lot of broken hearts along the way. A challenge for many 3's is also not to become too jaded about love.

As you are very independent and light on your feet you may have a problem finding a life partner that understands your ambitions or that is willing to share you with so many other people. Even if you don't achieve fame, 3's tend to be at the very center of their community and enjoy a thriving social and love life. In fact having too many romances during one lifetime is very characteristic of a 3.

As you always put talent or career first you might also find yourself to be the odd person out in a number of love triangles during your life. Usually this is because a career calling forces a 3 to abandon a partner who cannot keep up with them. Sometimes their fast-paced lifestyle does not offer them the time to cultivate a relationship. For this reason you also might find your relationships to be more unorthodox than others might; finding soul mates who are already attached or that are much older or much younger than you.

As you have a very spiritually sophisticated view of life you embrace change without the fear that is experienced by most of the other numbers. Often this causes you hardships financially, as you are the number that is most willing to gamble or take a big risk to launch a new project.

You are capable of making large amounts of money, but also capable of spending it all just as fast. As you are not very materially minded you are not necessarily concerned about this but your carefree attitude about money often alarms your family and business associates.

Your tendency to live for today and not for tomorrow is a blessing as well as curse for you as you journey along your life path. The drawback of this is that you are easily distracted from your responsibilities.

The rare number three that is not successful in life has probably lost his or her focus. The positive aspect of this tendency to live in the here and now is that you rapidly bounce back from any type of misfortune and like a chameleon have an uncanny ability to reinvent yourself throughout your life time.

What a Number '9' Expression Says About You

You are very warm and friendly and almost all that meet you are immediately impressed by your gentle and kind personality....

The ultimate height of your personal expression in life is the chance to offer to others. You are spiritual in a very practical way and others are often drawn to your empathy and compassion. You work well with people of all ages but you particularly delight in inspiring creativity in children and young adults. For this reason you make a fantastic teacher, counselor or psychologist.

Others trust you implicitly because you are so kind, considerate and consistent. You are often the one that is still there when everyone else has abandoned someone for being a "lost cause." You are an extremely loyal and dependable friend.

You are a very intuitive individual who is deeply connected to others in a spiritual way. Many nines are prophets, healers and psychics. If you are not psychic then at the very least you are deeply drawn to studying matters of the occult or religion in some way. As you are so driven by your intuition, you are not often found in a day job but rather in an occupation that allows you to go where your heart leads you.

As others don't understand your idealism you might suffer a great deal of skepticism or criticism in your life. While very young you may have learned to cloak your personality in eccentricity so that others don't take you seriously. You may have also gained a great deal of weight or developed a disability that gives you the excuse not to have march in step with the mass population. Often these illnesses and personal problems exist in order to eventually to jumpstart a leap on the spiritual path to enlightenment. Your trials and troubles often eventually qualify you as a "wounded healer" by the end of your life.

You are very concerned with the issue of how to express unconditional love. This is a very troubling concept for you as it is difficult for you to accept that one could love another so much and get no cosmic reward in return. It is often part of a number nine's life expression path to be stuck with a difficult soul mate or experience a lot of rejection. This is the universe's way of forcing you to connect with others on a spiritual way rather in a way that is lustful or possessive.

Love is the most important thing in the world to you but you often have problems finding a soul mate. Many nines do not make good parents because they are too driven by impulse to be a consistent presence in a child's life. Your partner or lover may also find you frustrating because you live so much in the present and rarely think of the future.

You are very warm and friendly and almost all that meet you are immediately impressed by your gentle and kind personality. As the last thing anyone could ever call you is shallow, you sometimes don't pay that much attention to your personal appearance. Also putting other's priorities ahead of your own often leads to a great deal of self-sacrifice. One of your challenges is to make sure that you take time out to take care of yourself and your surroundings.

Creativity and art mean a great deal to you and many of you are great poets, musicians and artists. Art is an ideal way for you to express your love of harmony and the divine order of the universe.

Now, Let's Examine Your Soul Urge
(also known as your "Heart's Desire")

We have already done all the mathematics necessary to work out this number. It is simply the total of the top row (the vowels) of your full birth name.
In your case Thaydra, this totals 22.


You have the highest soul calling of all of the numbers, as it is the call to transform the world permanently and for the better. Usually you are born with all of the tools that you need to accomplish this including a stable personality, intelligence, courage and charisma.

Even if you are born into very humble circumstances, you will usually transcend them to become a great leader, diplomat, builder or religious figure. Usually the cosmos has you born into poor or deprived circumstances so that you spend your childhood knowing the worst and familiarizing yourself with the needs of the common people. This is a necessary part of your soul's development as knowing the worst is how you will gauge what kind of change is needed to facilitate the most effective and positive change for the future.

Although you generally strive to make everything as perfect as your utopian dreams and ideals you are not bitterly disappointed when they do not manifest. This is because you realize that human beings are not god like creatures that do not make mistakes. To you making a mistake is an occasion for learning or making lemonade out of lemons.

Others often sense your warmth and understanding of humanity. You have the rare ability to make others feel emotionally secure. They know that your ultimate aim is to make them as happy as possible. Your ethical but strategic approach to political matters also makes you a valued ally of wealthy people. Often the cosmos smiles on a twenty-two by sending them a wealthy partner to fund their projects. Your diplomacy and charisma also makes you the perfect political liaison or diplomat.

You are the happiest when everyone else is happy and don't rest until your humanitarian goals are achieved. This does not always take place on the corporate or political stage. You are the one that is also found teaching a disabled child to read or reading a book out loud to a blind person.

One way that you could possibly go astray is to become fanatical or maniacal in your political or spiritual beliefs. Some twenty twos become convinced that they must destroy the world to create heaven on earth. The unfortunate thing is that many of these twenty-twos do actually have the power to effect change by tearing down existing societies and political structures. The result however is that they often destroy themselves in the process and rarely live to see the beneficial effects of their actions (if there are any).

Depending on the circumstance of your leadership, you may also find yourself in the position of having to judge another's soul or fate. Although you do not necessarily enjoy it, sometimes life offers you conundrums that put you in the position of having to be a stern disciplinarian or even of being the one who decides if another must live or die. This is part of your path, which that demands that nothing that you do must be done in a small way.

To check a tendency towards becoming overly dominant, it is very important for you to adopt a religious program or spiritual study that allows you to connect to your higher self or a higher power on a regular basis. This not only keeps your ego in check but also reminds you of mankind's higher spiritual purposes. Perhaps the most healing thing for your soul is simply to read out loud the words of ancient texts as these writings resonate very strongly with the noblest aspirations of your higher self.